My social media fast experience went amazingly well. It made me realize a few things about my life. It has been months and I believe that the impact of this challenge on me may be bigger than I ever thought. I honestly didn’t know if I could do it. It started off hard for the first few days but became easier with each day that passed. I didn’t realize that social media had become a mindless addiction until I was forcing myself to live without it. I also didn’t realize how much of my day that I was losing to it without even making a conscious choice. I had no idea how much time I waste on silly things that do not really matter and are not bringing me any closer to my goals. I decided to go through every aspect of my life and take some time to decide if I wanted to continue to choose to include that in my life. It was a long tedious job. It took me some time to return to this site which was not my original plan but it had to be carefully considered as well. I have decided to continue with this site because it is part of the life I see for myself and I truly enjoy it. I love having a creative outlet. While I did use Instagram and twitter, my Facebook feed was my number one offender. I have returned to using social media. I now set limits for myself and make a conscious choice about what time I spend on it. I no longer allow myself to stare hypnotized at my screen for hours scrolling through my feed.
Until I took away the distractions I did not notice how unhappy I was becoming. I didn’t know how bored and boring I had become. I was honestly very shocked by this. I had always been the person who was doing something. I had many hobbies just a few years ago. Had the mindless noise of social media and television really drowned out all of my hobbies? What I had done was pick up a few unhealthy ways to appease myself including being envious of other people on Facebook and Instagram, playing video and computer games, and watching more television than I have my entire life. I had become addicted to technology. I never expected it but it happened. By facing my addiction to social media I opened the flood gates. I had been mindlessly hopping from distraction to distraction. I had successfully removed anything and everything that provoked deep thought from my personal life. But why? That was when I started to become aware of my unhappiness. I have all these dreams and I was not doing anything to get closer to achieving them. In fact, I had found ways to avoid even thinking about them in any realistic way. The distractions I had become addicted to were killing my dreams. The distractions make it so much easier to ignore them.
Ok, I’m going to get super honest here. I am afraid that if I try my hardest, really give it my all, that it will not be enough. I am simultaneously afraid that it will be enough and my entire life will change. You always hear of these people who achieved their dreams and their whole life changed. They always seem happier but still…Change is scary too. What if I get what I think I want and it is not what I thought it would be? What if I fail miserably and then I lose the beauty of the dream? Is this what stops most people from attempting to live their dreams?
If I want to change something in my life I have to take the action to do so. I figured out that if I put my mind to it I could take steps to get closer to that crazy dream life I desire. My dreams are a little different but they are mine. I am willing to put in the time and effort to achieve my dreams. I am also willing to finally face my fears.